Just Leave the Peices When You Go...

[Nightshadë]

Uli stood in the midst of an old tree. His body was still and his feather coated wings laid comfortably on his back as his head hung low. He held no wishes or demands for this tree.

A moment in the making he took a stride. His paws disturbed flecks of soil as he made his way under the shade of the tree, the only one he could see. His front legs gave way and he slowly slid to the earth, his tear stricken face colliding with the ground as he made his akward stance, butt risen in the air and his chest on the ground. Once he had let his sobs be reined in he brought his hindlegs to the ground and laid his round head on his thick paws. The tiger striped fur was dirty and wet, he hadn't shifter human or even cleaned himself in a long time, he had been filled with to much grief.

Uli brought himself to accept what had happened, but refused to think about it. The images flashed in his head still and he couldn't help but feel sick, hungry, grief. His sides had shrunk in and his wings had lost thier muscular build as he slowly deteriorated inside. His eyes held a cloud of gloom and the once light blue and grey ovals were colorless slits with a black center.

He laid there on the ground his muzzle covered in dirt and his once sleek body and rough build now looked thin and his fur was rough to the touch. His whiskers held no more life, same for his tail which use to dance behind him while his eyes glittered. Death was all that he wanted, wanted the shadow of pain and diligence to surround him and engulf his soul, his body to forever rot under this tree.

Death shall soon strike me down, I have no urge to live nor do I have any reason not to die, everything around me lives and on the inside I feel as if I am already dead. These thoughts fill me with even more grief, grief I did not intend but I welcome all the same. Life thrills me no more, I am no longer Uli, just leave the peices when you go...

Word count: 419
Characters: Uli Garcia
Muse: Need You Now by Lady Antebellum

[wolflegend]

My mom used to tell me,
"Down the road the sun is shining. In every cloud there's a silver lining. Every Heart ache makes you stronger, but it won't be much longer, even if we weren't meant to be.

"Just keep holding on, and I'll never let go."

That was before she got cancer. She told me never to give up. Never to let go of things in life. Never to live in a shadow of my self. Always be me, and not someone else.

Those words seemed so simple then. I never thought about it, after she told me that, I asked her how I could be any one else besides myself.

I came to understand those words shortly after she died. My mother had always smiled at me when she saw me being myself, or pretending to be something I wasn't.

Only later did I learn what she meant by those simple words. Only later, was it too late to tell her that I understood now. Only later, was it too late to say goodbye.


My mother died in the hospital on December 24, 2003, other wise known as Christmas Eve. I was only eight when she left me, but I guess it wasn't a choice she was offered to take.

If my mom waas given a choice, I know she would never leave me.


I sometimes wonder out to this small field. It had dull yellow flowers, and mist towering them. It was a mystical place, somewhere I felt good; alone. It was somewhere I only had to please one person: myself.

"You have to say goodbye now, you have to let me go...." She told me as she started to fade into her own world; a world of light; a world of joy; a world where there was no sorrow. A world, like a dream world.

"Weren't you the one who told me never to let go?" I asked her after she told me to say goodbye; to just let her go; to let her fade; to let her be happy.

She smiled, not because I was irogant and stuborn, but because she loved me.

She put her hand up to my face and smiled her smile that was warm and comforting; her smile that made you feel warm inside; a smile that made you want to smile too.
I put my hand on her hand as I pulled it from my face and held on to her.

A tear escaped from the rim of my eye and ran down my cheek.

"I'll love you forever, Rachel." She said as her hand fell from my grip and her eyes slowly shut. She was dead. She was lost. She was gone forever.


I heard a bell toll in the distance and then I looked up from the ground I was staring at. I found myself crying.

I looked over and saw a tall gothic structure above the tree line. It had been drizzling all day and the field was wet. I was wet.

Another tear streamed down my face as I thought of my mother and how she used to tell me to wish a wish everytime the clock tower's bell tolled.

I wished for the same thing everytime, but I knew it wouldn't come true.

I looked up from the ground as anopther tear streamed down to my chin and fell.
I had my knees pulled up to my chest and my hands holding them in place tightly. I was always like this when I came to this particular field. It was a field of memories, one that stored them and always gave them back when you needed them. A field good for thinking.

I loved to come here because my mother took me here as a child. I was now fifteen, about to turn sixteen in six days.

I was deppressed now. I had no one to tell that it was my birthday. No one needed to know. That was the same day the doctor told my mother she had cancer. I hated that day.

I looked around me, I saw no one there. I put my head back between my knees and chest and began to sob. Six days until my birthday. Six days until the anniversary of my mothers death. Six days until I made my choice whether to be gone forever.

I heard the bell toll again and sobbed even harder. My eyes were swollen and they stung from the moisture falling from them. My eyes were bloodshot and red. It looked like I had been crying for several days straight. Truth is, I had been. I cried everyday ever since my mother died eight years ago on Christmas Eve, also known as my birthday.

My mother always said I was a chistmas present given away early, but now I didn;t know what she meant. Now I felt nothing like present, more of a burden now. More then ever since she died.

I heard the doctor have a conversation with my mom. The doctor said if she hadn't had kids, then she might have been able to survive the cancer instead of being to weak and her system not being able to fight it. I felt worse. I wished I had never overheard their conversation in the first place, but then again, I was glad I had.

I was glad I heard my mother tell the doctor that she never regretted having me as her daughter. She never regreted anything she did. She said she would rather die then regret having me as a daughter. She said she couldn't live with the guilt of ver regretting having me as her daughter, and for that, I felt specail. I felt loved. I felt like I had a home. A home in my mother's heart.

I Continued to sob, a bit more loudly. I didn't have a care in the world right now. I just wanted to be alone. I just wanted to be alone.





Word Count: 1,024
Character: Rachel Hunter
Muse: Sad Gothic Piano Music

[Nightshadë]

Uli could sense the darkened skyline over head, he could feel the trickle of rain over him and yet he did not move. His whole frame only shifted slightly his ears pinning back and his eyes closing. A dramatic scene for what I want to do, but I cannot argue I am a creation of mother earth, she is sad to see such a unique being living a painful life. But I deserve every ounce of what I had to endure. Uli could feel more sobs coming up, in one last amount of energy to live his whole body shook violently in sobs and a massive roar escaped his cavernous maw before her grew still and silent.

Tears rushed his face, faster and quicker then the rain that surrounded him. I give up. His words came in a fatel attempt to ease the life from him. As he spoke his body relaxed and his head laid back down on his paws. A image flashed in his eyes, he forced himself to close his eyes and his tears shot out again, a tiny bit of life returned. His eyes glimmered almost as the image, a video, ran in his eyelids as his tears blurred his site the video remained clear. He could feel it and his wings gave one last flap, rain water shot everywhere almost as if the tree had shaken itself free.

Uli smiled gently as he relaxed and fell into a slight slumber. His eyes half open half closed. He could see his whole life, suddenly his body jackknifed on the ground as he remembered his last month. His jaws clenched once he regained control of himself and another roar escaped, it traveled miles around, a sad depressing sound of pure pain and agony. Withen the roar was his whole life, his mistakes in life, the things he regretted the most. A soft word slipped out, audiable to non but himself, and it cause another stream of tears to drain from his eyes.

His visions dance across his eye lids even after he had fallen into a depth of sleep he couldn't imagine. His whole body refused to move and he felt as if he was floating above himself. He could see his tears rolling down his cheeks like a river raging. He could see the rain pelting his coat and his wings laid flat out without any movement, Am I dead? his grief was stricken with the fear of death, the fear that he would come to do thi for the rest of his life, float around and never see himself happy, living in another time his thoughts the last ones he had, the ones of death and dispair but also of the happy times.

His visions shifted to him falling, he could see his brothers whicked smile as he stood over the cliff waiting to see is own brother crash and die amongst the surf, then it shifted he could see a boys face, older then the last vision and he was falling then something happened. In a flash of red and yellow light a tiger emerdged with wings and the wind caught him and made him glide smoothly over the rocks and water. He gave a mighty roar and a young pegasus flew swiftly to him,

Rach...

His wind caught and he shook with more sobs. The love of his life, the one he wished to never leave and yet he had. everything grew colder around him like the air could feel his misury and wanted to make him forget the past, to shatter his dreams and bring him to wake up, to stand up. Uli gave another dreadful roar his emotions cramped within it. He kept repeating her name in his head and he gave a wing beat, just enough to make him rise, then collapse. He drew in a sharp breath and laid down again, truely giving up. She will never want to see me anyway, I'm already as good as dead why not be dead. his attitude changed in the blink of an eye his death wish coming stronger as he lay there, unmoving.

I want to die, and nothing could pull me from deaths grip now. He gave another sob, then he could no longer shed a tear as he lay there. His whole body laying there stiff and cold, yet he did not shake but grew more still, more quite. Until he looked nothing of a living being, but a dead shifter. His whiskers lay at the side of his mouth and his eyes sagged as did his heavy heart. He wanted to cry and wished to cry, but he had not another tear left in him and he laid still, waiting for the reaper to take his soul and let him break the chains of his body, to let his soul live without the dead wiehgt of his body. For his soul to fly free and meet his family.

He could feel the rain pick up as it hit his coat, he could feel the icy needles stinging him all over his body as he lay there, wishing for death to come quickly. What is it like to die? What will happen to my soul once I have died? Will I greet my god in hevan above? Will I join the strands of life and find myself inside another being? Another creature for me to take over, to leave my hide to take another reincarnated? Questions flashed in his mind as he laid still and stiff still pondering what could happen once his young life slipped from his paws.

Before he could let himself go he roared, his longest roar he had. He could feel his body vibrating as he roared, every ounce of dispair he had felt in his life coming out. It sounded like a true embrace of death as he roared, his maw closing only for him to choke on his breath and slip, he could faintly feel the wind and rain hitting his body, he could feel the claws of death grasping him in their sticky clasp, I wish to go, to leave earth. Good bye forever more tree... Good bye forever more Rachel.... Good bye.

Word Count:1107
Characters: Uli Garcia
Muse Consider Me Gone [Reba Mcentire][/color][/size]

[wolflegend]

I was growing more insane everyday. There was no denying it. Everything I looked at, it reminded me of her: my mother. I used to have a brother too, but he waas killed in a tragedy. A car rammed him in a head on crash. The two cars and their passengers would have survived if the semi turck's driver hadn't spun itno them either. He was texting while driving and ended up spinning and spinning and spinning so that the truck was on its side. Niether him, or the six other people involved in the accident survived. Sure, I was one of those people, but my bother had to take the fall for me.

I was suposed to drive that day, but he insisted that he drive since I was tired. That was my brother for you: loving, always looking after me, and taking care of me. He was like my gaurdian along with my mother. But that all changed after they both died. I was now my self's guaridan.

I felt like I was dying inside. From the inside out. Not quickly, but slowly; like a cube of ice set by the fire. Slowly melting away to nothing. That would all change soon, though. All of that will change. I closed my eyes and put my head back between my chest and knees.

I heard a roar in the distance and looked up. It sounded like a lion. It was a familiar sound. I got up and started to run.

I ran and ran and ran. Until I came to the spot in which I heard the roar come from, or, at least, this is the direction it came from.

I looked around then I spotted a tree. I stopped and stared. It was a familiar figure. Uli. Uli was a boy in which I loved. He was sweet, kind, cute, nice, and all the other stuff that a great guy woud be.
He was actually the nicest person I had ever met in my life.

In my life. That was a long time. I am a new person now. I have a new lead. A new life. A new personality. It was called being alone.

I was alone everyday in my life. No one knew who I was, no one really cared. No one really wanted to know who I was. Why would they?

I looked onto the horizon and had rain sprinkle into my face as it started to grow more heavy. A bolt of lightning striked in the distance. I jumped as I heard the thunder. The wind started to pick up and it swirled around. I needed to get to Uli: the one slowly dying under the tree. I wanted to get to Uli.

I called his name, "Uli!" But didn't see or hear a response. I started to try to run to him, but the wind was going the opposite direction as if not wanting me to go to him. I called again, "Uli!" I waited for a response from the lame figure that was laying on the ground under the huge tree.

"Uli, its me Rachel! Uli!" I yellled again against the wind. My voice carried in the wind, but then was lost.

I ran harder against the wind, this time making progress. My eyes were red from crying and I was soar from sleeping in the field from the night before. Tears were still on my face, but now they were drying.

I kept blinking as the wind shot its forceful blasts in my face and eyes. It stung, but it was worth it if I could get to Uli.

I saw another bolt of lightning and heard more thunder. This time, a blast of lightning landed right in front of me and I was hurtled backward. I hit my forehead and I presumed that it had done no damage, but I didn't know at that time that I had now a huge gash in my forehead as it started to bleed.

I ran faster this time, with more strength then I ever recalled on having. I raced to him, finally able to get there. I ran up to him and fell on the ground at his fet I put my hand on his head and pet the top of his head as he lay there in lion form. "Uli," I said in a sighed relief. "It's me, Rach...." I said as she brushed my hand down the top of his head again. I sat on my knees with my feet flat on the ground.

That's the thing I like about my legs, they were very flexible, but my heart: not so flexible. I would probably die of loneliness if I didn't have Uli around for me to talk to. I was actually happy around him.

Happy nnot being a normal feeling for people, especially ones like me. Happy; there just wasn't a such word in my dictionary. It's just a made up word. A word that has no meaning. A word that is just a word to describe something that is really nothing. A word, that simply is a waste of time to have around. But around him, I actually did have a feeling, and that feeling many people call happieness.

I felt memories swell back to my mind. The time we were at the cliff, cliff diving as we shifted into our animal form, the time we fought the monster Zalyntherza, the time he looked after me when I was dying. The time he told me he loved me.

I felt those memories swirl around in my head like dust would in a cyclone. I felt them fill me with something, something... Something like, joy? I think the word to describe it would be joy, but I wouldnt know. I had never felt joy before. It was just another made up word that didn't exist.



Word Count: 1,002
Character: Rachel Hunter
Muse: best sad song ever on youtube

[Nightshadë]

Uli could hear the claps of thunder and the bolt of lightning. He could sense another in his mist, but he knew it could be to late. He knew that it wasn't someone he should bother to stop his death bed from coming. He felt the lightning and his heart raced in his ears, he was afraid the person would hear it and he froze completly still, acting completly dead. In his whole time in his animal for he had prepared himself for death, he hadn't feared it even as it slowly krept up to him, stalking. For he had no will to live, he had lost everything in only a few short weeks.

He could hear the footfall coming closer, the wind was pulling at his wings until they beat to steady himself. He made an attempt to steady himself and he rose, then his strengh maxed and he collapsed again. A voice came from a distance and he knew he was having another vision, Rachel and him talking on the couch, him telling her he loved her. Then another bolt of lightning stirred his blood. HE opened his eyes to see the white dissappear, a womans figure took it's place and he could see it screaming, his body was limp and his wings look like that of a dead bird. His body had turned on it's side and his chest pulled in sharp labored breaths.

As he continued to watch the figure, he noticed the body and the hair, Rachel? he couldn't speak his muscles had all but left him and his body was in so much strain to open and close his eyes let alone talk. He gave a choked up sob as the wind hit him hard, making his body tumble a few feet.

Rachel.

Uli could barely manage the word and couldn't yell it like he wanted. His whole body tensed as he tried to rise. Failing. His voice cracked as he spoke again saying the same words as before. The wind rushed against him and he strained to fight to stop himself from tumbling over on his side again. He could see Rachel getting closer to him and he gave a soft throaty roar, his tail lashed out and his wings laid limp.

She had reached him, he was on the verdge of passing out and not passing out. His whole body was limp and his head laid on the ground in an awkward position. He could feel her hand glide over his scalp and he smiled to himself, his face unable to make the gesture. HE wanted to yell and holar in joy he had found Rachel, and she had hopefully saved his life. He wanted to talk to her, to tell her everything was alright, but he remained mute. His mouth unable to catch the thoughts and make them audible words. Except for one.

Rach...

He glanced up the rims of his eyes fading black and red. His wings gained strengh to fold up against his back and his face made a small smile as he closed his eyes, then reopened them.

Hi

Maybe if he hadn't been in a stressed situation he would have said something like I love you, or maybe thank you or I messed you alot. But Hi would do for now in his mind, and the words were so hard to muster the strengh for he almost feinted.

Words 635
Character Uli Garcia
Muse Live Like you were Dieing [Tim Mcgraw]